latelenovela Chapter 191 Forgive me.
Chapter 191 Forgive me.
When Childhood woke up, it was already dark and the downstairs had returned to silence.
She touched her belly and the baby was still there.
She is a mother, so of course the first thing she thinks of is her child. She looked at the ceiling, and the dark room reflected the moonlight outside.
I can see it, very clearly.
She clearly saw the image emerging on the ceiling, of being scolded by her parents as a child and having to cook for them when she was tired and hungry.
She would be scolded if she fell down while chasing her younger brother, and she would still carry him on her back to play even though she was very skinny.
She didn't spend a penny of her first salary on herself. Looking at their smiling faces made her feel happy even if the money was not given to her.
She clearly remembered that she was happy and her parents were just a little harsh on her.
Maybe if she did better, maybe they would treat her better.
Maybe if she behaved a little better, maybe they could call her "Nian Nian."
The name Nian Nian has long been forgotten, and they usually just call her "dead girl" and "money-losing girl".
She saw with her own eyes her father beating her mother, and she also saw with her own eyes those dilapidated homes being smashed to pieces.
She was very small and her shoulders were weak, so she couldn't support her entire childhood, but she still felt happy because she still had a home at that time.
Later, as she grew up, she became less and less willing to return to that home. She wanted to grow up and go far away.
She wanted to escape from that home, the home that couldn't give her any warmth but blackmailed her. She was filled with pain, one after another.
But what good is it if they escape? The marks are still there and they still can't prove anything.
Childhood must have been bitter when tears flowed through the corners of the eyes.
She knew that she couldn't get excited anymore, and she also knew the pain of having her scars revealed, but when she faced the facts, she felt worse than death.
The door opened and Lu Tingshen walked in.
From the dim light, I could see that she was lying there motionless.
But he was familiar with the way she looked when she was asleep, and now she was obviously awake.
There was light in the corners of her eyes and she was crying.
He knew that he was a sinner, so he approached cautiously, walked in front of her, and squatted down:
"Are you hungry? Do you want something to eat?"
he asked softly.
Tongnian closed her eyes, remained calm, her breathing was steady, and it seemed that her emotions had stabilized.
Her ignoring him meant she was still blaming him.
He held her hand, which was a little cold. The heating in the room was turned on very high, but she was still cold.
Lu Tingshen held her hand in his palm, treating it like a treasure:
"Baby, I know you care a lot, and I also know you are very sad. They are your parents, and I am not qualified to judge. But what I want to say is that those things are in the past, and we will live happily in the future, believe me."
Yes, those things are in the past and she wants to move on.
Tears welled up in Childhood's eyes again, but her heart still ached.
Lu Tingshen kissed her hand and said affectionately:
"Don't do this, I'm really scared."
He was really scared, and his happiness came to an abrupt end.
Childhood slowly opened its eyes:
"Should I not have shown up?"
How could this be? If she hadn't appeared, how could his life be complete?
"No, you are the most important person to me. You can't not show up. We have a son and will have a daughter soon. We will be very happy, really."
"really?"
"real."
Okay, I believe you, Lu Tingshen.
He didn't mention the past, but every sentence was about it; she didn't mention the past, but every word was about it.
Some things don't need to be mentioned, and some people don't need to be thought about.
With Lu Tingshen's comfort, she finally let go of her childhood. Maybe she would still think of it at some moment or turning point, and it would still hurt, but she could bear it.
She always carries the shadow of her childhood, regrets and the past.
There is no need to force yourself to forget, just stop thinking about it.
Tongnian's belly was getting bigger day by day, and Lu Tingshen took care of her, loved her, and cherished her.
She really couldn't remember the pain brought by her original family. After all, there is sweetness after bitterness.
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Soon spring comes and flowers bloom, and in the blink of an eye, the baby is about to be born.
Now that I have difficulty moving around, I can only stroll upstairs and rarely go downstairs.
Lu Tingshen was afraid that she would fall, so he wouldn't let her stay alone. In addition to having servants take care of her, he also worked from home.
With his company, the entire pregnancy period didn’t feel difficult.
"Baby, do you want to go out and get some sun?"
The sun is very warm today, and she always goes to the terrace to see the flowers.
"I want to go to the yard."
Lu Tingshen was a little hesitant. After all, it was a bit tiring to go up and down the stairs, and now she was responsible for the safety of two people alone.
"It's a bit cold outside, let's not go." He helped her tidy up the loose hair around her ears.
Although she is pregnant now, her whole body has not changed except for her belly, especially her skin, which is very tender.
Lu Tingshen touched her face with a doting look.
"But I haven't been out for a long time. I'm so bored."
Lu Tingshen couldn't stand her acting coquettishly. She was so soft that it made people feel itchy.
He curled his lips:
"Then kiss me."
It was all he could do, just a kiss and a hug. Lu Tingshen couldn't bear it any longer.
Childhood smiled and kissed his face:
"Is it done?"
Lu Tingshen was not satisfied and motioned for her to kiss him on the mouth. He bent down and kissed her gently.
The goal was achieved, and Lu Tingshen helped her down.
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The garden is bare now, it is not yet the season for flowers to bloom, but the air outside is still good.
I still remember that she often painted here, and he...
"Where are my paintings?"
Before leaving childhood, I drew a lot of pictures, including Lu Tingshen.
During the time when he went abroad and lost contact, she drew Lu Tingshen. She was waiting for him and herself.
Lu Tingshen collected the paintings as evidence of her love for him.
"What painting?"
It seems that he doesn't know. Forget it, there is no point in mentioning it anyway.
She remained silent, and Lu Tingshen deliberately said:
"You mean the painting with that guy named Ye?"
Ye Mingxiu? How come he still remembered?
"No, I didn't say that."
Tongnian didn’t want to mention Ye Mingxiu, after all, he was also implicated.
Lu Tingshen looked at her embarrassed expression:
"He almost got the upper hand back then, luckily he was slow to act."
The more I didn't want to mention it, the more he insisted on mentioning it, saying all sorts of nonsense:
"He and I are just friends."
Lu Tingshen raised his eyebrows:
"Then do you think that if you two were in some other relationship, I would let him go?"
What he said was reasonable and a little annoying:
"What about you? You're always dating someone else. If you didn't insist on pestering me, you would have been married a long time ago, and your children would be older than Tiantian."
Well, he was the one who brought this upon himself. If he wanted to settle old scores, who could be better than her?
He instantly gave in and hugged her:
"I was just teasing you, why are you taking it so seriously?"
"You brought it up. I was going to ask you something about those women you had before..."
Here it comes again. Lu Tingshen quickly blocked her mouth:
"I was wrong, okay? I really deserved to be told off. I was wrong, please forgive me and never mention it again."
That's better. If we don't get to the point, we can't cure him.
Lu Tingshen is a novice and a playful person. He always starts with a high profile but ends in a humiliating way.
He can't afford to talk, can't afford to offend, and can't afford to manage.