She is so pitiful? I choose to pity myself first

Chapter 288 Gu Shiye, do you think I'm disgusting?

Gu Shiye covered Lin Tingyu's mouth.

"enough."

Lin Tingyu looked very calm, but at this moment, Gu Shiye felt as if she was about to break.

He hugged her, removed his hands, and kissed her.

"Stop talking..."

Just imagining it, Gu Shiye felt so heartbroken that he couldn't breathe.

Lin Tingyu said, "No, I want to tell you."

"Gu Shiye, I was very stupid in my previous life. I did a lot of saintly things, not caring about my own safety, not caring about whether I could have enough food, and not even trying to tell whether the other person was really worth helping..."

"That's my own fault."

"I saved the patient and I have a clear conscience, but I got sick. The disease wouldn't have killed him so quickly, but I was too poor. The attitudes of the people around me made me feel abandoned by the whole world. I feel like all the good things I've done in my life that made me feel satisfied are like a joke!"

"Everyone abandoned me. No one was willing to help me, not even my uncle. If I died, they wouldn't even collect my body because of my scandals..."

"So, before I died in my last life, I told myself that if I had a chance to do it again, I would never make the same mistake again... I would be a selfish person, I would love myself, and I would never be as stupid as before..."

Lin Tingyu didn't realize as she spoke that her speech was getting faster and faster, and she was getting a little excited.

Gu Shiye hugged her, hugged her tightly.

"enough……"

"Lin Tingyu..."

His voice was shaking.

"How is it? Now you have heard about the stupid things I did in my last life, you know that I had that kind of disease, you know that everyone thought I was a fool and abandoned me... Even my intelligence and abilities in this life are all because I lived an extra life, which gave me the advantage..."

"Gu Shiye, do you think I'm disgusting?"

Lin Tingyu didn't stop, but Gu Shiye's "enough" stimulated her.

She felt that Gu Shiye was unwilling to accept the her in his dream.

"If you don't want to accept it...we can split up...um..."

The next second, Gu Shiye kissed her fiercely and bit her lips like a beast!

"Don't say those two words..."

Lin Tingyu felt pain, but the physical pain was far less than the pain and shame of tearing open the cause of her death in her previous life.

"Don't say..."

Gu Shiye's eyes were bloodshot, and Lin Tingyu's eyes were also red. It was unclear whether it was because of the pain from his bite or because she finally released her pent-up emotions.

"Don't you think I'm stupid, disgusting, and unworthy of you?! I just took advantage of my rebirth..."

Lin Tingyu roared angrily, but Gu Shiye could hear the howl of the little beast that was injured and trying to protect itself.

He just held her tightly and comforted her.

"You are not stupid. In your previous life, you were just too innocent and too kind..."

Gu Shiye was so distressed that he couldn't speak. He took a deep breath and kissed Lin Tingyu gently, placing a kiss on her forehead, then on her eyelids, the tip of her nose, and the corners of her lips...

Then, he stayed by her ear and told her firmly:

"Lin Tingyu, don't hate yourself... You are good, whether it is you in your previous life or you now, you are good!"

"I just hate myself. Why did I have a crush on you in my previous life, but I never received any kindness from you, and because I was not capable enough, I didn't get close to you..."

In the previous life, Gu Shiye had a crush on her? !

Lin Tingyu looked at him in disbelief.

"No... Impossible. In my last life, you clearly said that I was stupid..."

That was one of the rare communications they had in their previous life.

"You're talking nonsense. You're just trying to comfort me. Although we were deskmates in our previous life, you never took the initiative to say anything to me!"

"My success was affected by them and plummeted. I even failed the college entrance examination... It's impossible for you to have a good impression of me. You must think that I am not worthy of you and I am not even qualified to talk to you..."

Gu Shiye kissed her lips, stopping her from speaking.

After a long time, he said:

"Yes. I think you are stupid. So stupid that I decided to turn a blind eye to you even though I had a crush on you. I think you will bring me endless troubles, and I will not be able to help you solve them at that time..."

"I can't stand the fact that you're nice to everyone, but at the same time I admire you from the bottom of my heart..."

"Admire me?"

Lin Tingyu couldn't believe it.

"Do you think there is anyone in this world who would do everything you think is right without hesitation like you do? Maybe we all want to do it, but all of us, including me, are selfish, timid, and afraid of being hurt..."

"We can't put aside our own interests, nor do we have the courage to do those things, but you always do it without hesitation."

"In everyone's eyes, you are just a fool. But while everyone is laughing at you, they also admire you. Because what you can do, none of us... can do it."

"Have you not noticed? Those who laugh at you, those who have been helped by you, actually hate themselves. They hate themselves for not having the ability to need your help. So when they become stronger, they will subconsciously try to humiliate you and deny everything you have done, as if they have never experienced such a bad moment..."

"They don't hate you. They just hate their former selves who were weak and failed, and who were cowardly and couldn't be as bold as you."

"They can't accept their past selves, so they choose to make you, who witnessed their worst side, disappear. Only when you are in a weak position and laughed at by everyone will they be happy, and feel as if they can erase their most embarrassing memories..."

Lin Tingyu was stunned.

She had never heard anything like it.

She stared at Gu Shiye.

"So, what about you? If you really had feelings for me in your previous life, why didn't you come to me?"

Gu Shiye thought about the dream he just had.

That dream felt so real to him that at one point he even felt as if he was Gu Shiye in the dream.

Everything that Gu Shiye experienced in the dream seemed to have happened to him personally.

He knew exactly what he was thinking in his dream.

Obviously, when he saw Lin Tingyu helping others, he felt fond of her and even admired her...

However, he could also see clearly that it was not worth it for her to do so.

Those people whom she cared for and helped regardless of their own personal interests actually did not appreciate it at all. Some of them even stabbed her in the back while enjoying her help...

He thought she was stupid, but he couldn't help but look at her.